Trials and Tribulations of a Working Woman

prepping for a meeting with my boss...



I had an interesting day at work today. I had an off site meeting with CVS real estate and outside counsel to discuss process and procedure. I received a huge shout out from one of the lawyers. Kudos to me and a nod of acceptance from my boss.



Lets backtrack to the end of October while on vacation in Orlando. We just fired the person who trained me and I was inheriting all 35 of her projects. I've been with the company all of 7 months. Fastforward to the first week in December when we hire a replacement and I transition and train. All the while I'm told, "this is your chance, it is what you make of it..." "Our plan for you is a Senior position end of 1st quarter '08...we want to see what you can do...your model is what we'd like to emulate..."



The past two weeks were tough for me. While one of my co-workers was frolicking in Disney World I was picking up the pieces and completing reports for her projects. No need to exagerate any more. Lets just say that no 2 people tackle their jobs with the same enthusiasm and sense of pride....or go on vacation and totally "disengage" from their job. I made it through after spending lots of hours in my cubicle.



Back to the present, after the meeting concludes I decide to confront the guy I work with. Now CVS has made some changes to personel so that means changes for us as well; changes that have not been sorted out yet. Because I seem to be the "go to person" when the company's in a shit storm or needs to be bailed out, I wanted answers, I feel I deserve the courtesy of being kept in the loop.



Often times as much as we want answers we are reluctant to actually hear what we are going to be told. It seems as though I am going to be bailing the water out of the sinking rowboat...with a measuring cup....YET AGAIN. Throw out the window the 10 1/2 months of blood, sweat and tears I threw into all of my projects and relationships I forged. I was moving on to someone new, new territories, new players, change, change, change....



Why is it that those who go above and beyond the call of duty are always the ones called upon day in and day out to shoulder the burden and expected to deliver to the highest of expectations?


A compliment? A punishment? Both?


This job since day one has been a roller coaster of ups and downs; of second guessing myself and looking for approval. Not one to look at the glass half full, I'm working it out in my head because I do know my job and am secure enough to know I do a good job.


I have left jobs in the past because I was bored and there was no challenge left. I could have passed up a challenge and avoided a lay-off but I wasn't satisfied not learning something new.


Some days I'd like to wave the white flag, throw up my hands and ask myself, "Why do I care so much?" Or, "I'm only one person, do what you can."

Thanks Mom and Dad for raising me with integrity and a strong work ethic.

I'm waiting for the big payoff. I hope it comes sooner than later.